I don’t want to be a cookie-cutter person. I don’t want to blend in. I want to love with abandon, pursuing God with all that I have.
This is where I am. I am restless. I am going forward. I am asking questions, seeking Him more than ever. Not relying on church services to survive day-by-day, but going expecting. Expecting to hear truth. To be challenged to go deeper.
As I am writing this, it has dawned on me. I am pursing a relationship with Jesus. I’ve always known about Him. I grew up in church hearing stories about him. Yes, I’ve been in a relationship with Him since I was a nine-year-old little girl. But, at this point in my life, I am past the what can you do for me stage. I’m in the head-over-heels, might seem crazy kind of love stage.
Let me explain. I’ve never pursued a relationship quite like this before. God knows me – inside and out. He knows my weaknesses, my dreams, the things that disgust me, and what I love. So, I can’t hide anything from Him. I can’t put on my happy face and pretend things are okay when they aren’t. Because He knows me. He knew me before I was ever thought about twenty-something years ago. He knows my victories as well as my struggles better than anyone. And you know what? That is absolutely terrifying and also awesome because it requires trust. Trust isn’t something that comes easily to me.
Because I have chosen over the years to grow in my relationship with Him, praying when I didn’t feel like it, worshipping through pain, I can say I know Him. I know He loves me and created me for a specific purpose. I know He died for me. I know just a small degree of the pain He took for me on the Cross.
As I fellowship with Him more, I am learning the depths of His love. I am learning His ways are so perfect – so complete – that even when I mess up, as long as my heart is right before Him and I continually put Him first, everything has a way of working out. I am growing in knowledge of Jesus my Healer. I keep learning more, and I can’t get enough of Jesus!
How is your relationship with Him? Has it gotten stale? YOU have the power to change that, right now! Repent, and then do something different. Pick up your Bible and read a chapter. Some of you may be saying, “Well, I don’t have a relationship with Jesus at all.” That can change! Ask Him to come into your heart, ask for forgiveness for all of the wrong things you’ve done, and say Jesus is your Lord!
2014 is the year of pursuit!
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